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I'm not going to argue in my own defense, because I feel it somewhat pointless. I've seen the posts, except the ones in the game, because I promised I wouldn't. What I did wasn't right. You're right. You're all right, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I hurt you, because it wasn't my intention, and I should have acted more appropriately. I should have thought through my actions, and I didn't, and I was disrespectful. I'm not expecting to be forgiven, and I know that's sinking to the lower bit of your priorities. I took too long to write a leaving post, so here it is, because you will hopefully read this.

I should have given more notice. I should have given notice in general. You guys are some of my best friends, and I acted inappropriately, and you feel that I betrayed you. And I don't know what to say that won't make you think that I'm feeling sorry for myself. I made a huge mistake. No one forced me into it, no one persuaded me. It was something that i did and take complete responsibility for, and I'm sorry for it.

I love you all, and I'm sorry that I hurt you.


Nov. 8th, 2006 09:56 pm (UTC)
I'm really not angry anymore, because it looks like the game is going to pull through. People seem to be willing to make an effort to repair the damage that was done, and to keep hold of characters even though they'll have to start from scratch for them.

But I just want to say, that for as much as you and a few other people complained about A+A, that's really unfair. I've always thought it's unfair. A+A is their otp. Okay, so what? That's not something to get pissed off about, and unlike a lot of the characters in the game, they do have other things going on in their lives. Characters like Magdelena and Gladys had plot primarily with their partners, like... in that almost all of their in-game time is spent with them. Not to mention Gideon and Dorcas, which is not in RW, but in other games. When you guys talked about A+A so much, it really upset Maddie and Jamie. Like -- really. I don't know how many times Maddie has IMed me saying that she and Jamie were thinking about dropping A+A from RW because of it. Because of you guys being so judgmental about that pairing. There's really no room for you or anyone to talk there, everyone in the game has characters in relationships, and A+A is probably the single most developed and realistic pairing IN the game.

Anyway, that's I all I had to say. I'm not that worried about Severus, so long as Sebastian stays in the game. But the fact is that when you made characters, they were almost always one half of a mutually dependent relationship with other characters. To pull them all at once means a LOT of other characters are probably going to drop, too. Characters like Otto won't have much to do anymore, Molly either. That's just a real shame, I think. And if you honestly think that you dropping isn't going to break the game, I just want to say that it might. It really might. I hope to God that it doesn't, but there's no way to tell at this point.
Nov. 8th, 2006 10:05 pm (UTC)
I'm glad the game is going to pull through. At one point yesterday, before I think it really hit home, you said something nice to me about coming back if I wanted to. I know that invitation is not there anymore, and I understand why. I've broken a lot of trust, and I know you can't trust me anymore.

I had no idea that I had that effect, I really really didn't, and if I'd know I would have dropped Glen. I honestly didn't think she was a Sue, and the changes that you sent me for her, I was going to make. I honestly didn't know that bit, and there's really nothing that I can say that will make up for what I've done. Saying I'm sorry isn't enough, and I know that.

If there was something I could do, I would. If I could take it back, I would, but I know I can't, and I know that there's no reason I should be given that chance anyway. I'm sorry for what I've done to all of you.
Nov. 8th, 2006 10:11 pm (UTC)
And thank you for taking the time to write it all here. I really do appreciate it.
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Nov. 8th, 2006 10:48 pm (UTC)
He is, thanks.