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I'm not going to argue in my own defense, because I feel it somewhat pointless. I've seen the posts, except the ones in the game, because I promised I wouldn't. What I did wasn't right. You're right. You're all right, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I hurt you, because it wasn't my intention, and I should have acted more appropriately. I should have thought through my actions, and I didn't, and I was disrespectful. I'm not expecting to be forgiven, and I know that's sinking to the lower bit of your priorities. I took too long to write a leaving post, so here it is, because you will hopefully read this.

I should have given more notice. I should have given notice in general. You guys are some of my best friends, and I acted inappropriately, and you feel that I betrayed you. And I don't know what to say that won't make you think that I'm feeling sorry for myself. I made a huge mistake. No one forced me into it, no one persuaded me. It was something that i did and take complete responsibility for, and I'm sorry for it.

I love you all, and I'm sorry that I hurt you.


Nov. 8th, 2006 09:53 pm (UTC)
I just can't believe you were so rude. That's the thing. The rudeness. It's one thing to leave a game, but another thing completely not to even give any real reasons or write a leaving post. When everyone's supposed to be friends. I mean, who does that? Well, other than you, I mean.

Personally, I'm not hurt. I'm angry. I'm annoyed that my characters have interacted with yours and now that time and plot is just gone as quickly as that because you decided, on what appears to be a whim, to quit the game. And you have given me no reason to suppose that it was not a whim, because you updated characters the same day that you left. Seriously, WTF? What I am INCREDIBLY pissed off about, however, is the hurt, work and worry you've caused to other people that I care about. I cannot believe that you had the audacity to upset people like that. What did you think everyone was going to think about what you did? Jesus Christ, Maddie, Carmen and Erin have done so much work - as has EVERYONE IN THE GAME, but those three in particular - and you repay them by leaving without even writing a leaving post, without ANY NOTICE. That's just, I can't even express how out of order that was, and I genuinely didn't realise that you had it in you to be so thoughtless and nasty. Seriously, have a little maturity.

I don't really understand how you can say 'I love you all' when you've been so astonishingly thoughtless. I would ask you why you did it, but I don't want any bullshit excuses like the ones you gave me last night (and to be honest, it's only now upon rereading what you said that I've realised just how much crap you were talking). It's kind of a waste of time, just like the time I've spent rping with you, judging by yesterday's events. God, MA. You have disappointed me so much. There really isn't any use in your apologising, because it means nothing at all. At least, not in my opinion. Mark's too nice. I don't think I want to forgive this.
Nov. 8th, 2006 09:59 pm (UTC)
By the time I was going to write the post, I'd been taken out, which is completely my bad because I should have done it first and not done the other shit I was doing.

I understand what you've said, and I thank you for taking the time to write it all here for me. What I did was thoughtless, and rushed.
Nov. 8th, 2006 10:02 pm (UTC)
Okay. Thanks for recognising that, at least.