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I'm not going to argue in my own defense, because I feel it somewhat pointless. I've seen the posts, except the ones in the game, because I promised I wouldn't. What I did wasn't right. You're right. You're all right, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I hurt you, because it wasn't my intention, and I should have acted more appropriately. I should have thought through my actions, and I didn't, and I was disrespectful. I'm not expecting to be forgiven, and I know that's sinking to the lower bit of your priorities. I took too long to write a leaving post, so here it is, because you will hopefully read this.

I should have given more notice. I should have given notice in general. You guys are some of my best friends, and I acted inappropriately, and you feel that I betrayed you. And I don't know what to say that won't make you think that I'm feeling sorry for myself. I made a huge mistake. No one forced me into it, no one persuaded me. It was something that i did and take complete responsibility for, and I'm sorry for it.

I love you all, and I'm sorry that I hurt you.


Nov. 8th, 2006 09:29 pm (UTC)
I’m not going to forgive you yet. If and when depends entirely on whether or not you just killed the game. I want to know the why if you’re ever willing to tell it. It’s not like you ever complained about anything.

I’m not as mad as I want to be. I am hurt. I thought the lot of us were friends. Then you and Shing take out a fifth of the character base.

P.S Real mature forcing a defreind for all the journals. Cause nobody might want to go back and read them or anything.
Nov. 8th, 2006 09:46 pm (UTC)
You're right, I didn't complain about the game. I didn't go to the mods and tell them when I had problems, but on the whole I think it's because I told myself they weren't problems or that I'd get over them if there were. I worried that Glen was a sue, but I never admitted it. I didn't want to think that all of my characters were the same, but I guess they were. It was never my intention to take out the game. If I could go back 24 hours, I'd never have left, but I figure you know that by now.

I'm sorry I hurt you. I truly am. I didn't do it because I didn't think of you all as friends. Honestly, you and all of them are some of the best ones I've had. I got impulsive. I just did it and didn't give it more than a few hours of thought. And I should have.

P.S. I honestly hadn't thought of the consequences of doing it, because I didn't think that people looked back over them. I wasn't trying to be immature. I just wasn't thinking.