September 2nd, 2005

dorcas is my muse.

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Only 11:30 AM here and such a busy day it has been!  I worked last night until 10:00 PM and barely made it here on time for work at 7:00 AM.  Oh, I can't wait to get paid for this.

Working in this office makes me realize how much I love talking to people.  When everyone else in the office is frustrated and slightly nuts, I find this calm place that allows me to get so much accomplished.  Now I know why they kept my lazy ass around.  True, I have a tendency to get frustrated occasionally, but when I'm working working working I go into this really productive overdrive.  So I think that's why I like customer service.  Which puts a dent in my career plans.  I was intending to become a school psychologist, and no matter how much I love psychology, I can't see myself as having a career in it unless it has something to do with communication.  Yeah, I could be like everyone else and want to be a counselor (which isn't a bad profession, or a bad idea).  I just don't know if I want to continue taking courses in psychology.  I've applied so much more of what I learned in Communication classes to my job, and I really like my job most of the time.  I like talking to people on the phone and being responsible.  And apparently I'm not doing such a bad job, as people keep telling me that they are going to miss me, which I never mind hearing.  I met with my thesis advisor for lunch yesterday and she thought I would really like the idea of working as an event planner for an organization, nonprofit or not.  It's an idea, I haven't thought of it before.

When it comes to careers, it seems like everyone already knew what they were doing.  They knew what they liked, and when they found a career or a masters that let them do it, they grabbed it.  So I've been grasping at straws in the hope that I will find my place, find my career, and boast proudly about it.  First it was neuropsychology.  Then it was school psychology.  And now I don't know, and it scares me and makes me feel as though I don't know what I will do with my life.  I guess I just have to stop doing that, have an open mind, and keep my mind on the ball.

Which is why I'm SO SO GLAD Scott and I are going away this weekend.  Since we remembered that we have an additional day off for Labor day, we'll spend an extra night in Carmel.  I'm very much looking forward to spending some quiet time by the sea.
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