April 12th, 2005

dorcas is my muse.

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That's it, I've about had it.

I would like to think I have a good amount of patience.  This quarter hasn't been my finest, but I figured I would be okay.  I've gotten slam dunked with work this quarter.  And please let me bitch about this for a second.  I know some people have more work than I do, and that's stellar.  But give me a break.

It's been bad enough feeling really separated from a lot of my friends.  This, of course, was brought on my myself, for the most part.  I have a tendency to just let things go, but we all do that.

I've asked a lot of peoples' advice about what I should do about Travis.  I've tried to avoid the issue with Scott and Jordan because it really only causes more arguments.  I just wanted this issue to go away.  It's not like I did anything wrong.

But now I'm pissed off.  I've been trying so hard to push it down that it's got nowhere to go, and it burns.  Yesterday was too much.  I couldn't hold back, but you couldn't say I didn't try.  I tried to get away.  After the whole ordeal I came back home and was miserable the entire evening.  I got about an hour of sleep because I coudln't help thinking about it and I had a paper to write.  I honestly don't remember when I have been so miserable.

So that's it.  I've had enough.  I know it's not such a great idea. But I'm tired of running away.  I'm tired of getting pushed around when I know I can handle myself.  I won't go out of my way looking for trouble.  But I'm not going to get out the way when it comes up on me.

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