February 14th, 2005

dorcas is my muse.

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I haven't posted in a while.  Not that I haven't had the time to.  But let the procrastination continue!

So I've had two big fears among the many as of late.  Finances and future.  I think most of the people that I talk to have the same ish, seeing as most of the people I talk to are seniors.  But see, here's the thing.  I talk about it as though I've got it all figured out.  And I'm not saying I'm lying.  I want to become a school psychologist and work in a school district and test elementary school kids for learning disorders.  Because that's what I see myself doing.  I want to go to grad school and get that credential.  I want to get a masters in neuro, just to get a masters in neuro.

But as of late, I have been concerned.  Burned out, if you will.  Which was not helped much when my mother, who told me lovingly that she understood, also told me that I couldn't take a break from school.  Bummer.  Good arguments and such, but I was shot down.  So instead of, you know, preparing for next year, I've been dreading it.  With all my heart.

What did not seem to help was having my father come up to me not a month ago, tell me I shouldn't feel pressured, but if I'm going to go to grad school, it should be a Jesuit school or a prestigious school to show off.  Thanks, Daddu.

So here's the master plan: take chemistry series during the summer at SCU, then bio classes and neuro classes and some psych classes at a junior college during the fall, and then go to grad school for school psychology credential in the spring.

Breakdown: For the neuro masters, I have to have a basic backround in chem and bio.  Which I would have, if I had undertaken psycho bio.  However, I did not, and must pay the price.  Santa Clara is the only college around who offers the whole damn chemistry trilogy during the summer.  AND those credits are added to my records, WHICH MEANS I graduate with two degrees (I'm 10 units short, at the moment).

Grad schools I will be applying to: state schools for safety, but mostly UC schools.  SCU too.  Mostly because it will make Daddu happy and I'm a shoe in due to undergrad at SCU.  It just takes longer to get my credential.  And I don't really want to be a counselor.  I don't want my own practice or anything.  But I guess it helps to be open-minded and ready for any and all situations.  Whatever makes Daddu and Mama happy.

Other than that, there has been happiness.  Writing for the paper has been fun.  It's been a great experience.  I've done more this year than ever before, and I love it.

Sorry, I have to get moving.  As usual.

But it was very cool to see my Joy Joy today.  I've missed you!  You look happy and healthy, which is all that's important.  Much love.

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