December 29th, 2004

dorcas is my muse.

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It's been a strange turn of events these past few days.  Connecting and reconnecting with people.  It's been nice to take some time to relax and hog the couch.

We start winter quarter soon.  Strange that so much has changed since the end of fall quarter.  Everything changes.

In the midst of the pure happiness that I've felt since break started, I can see fear and anxiety coming on.  Having to deal with things that I knew were coming up.

I don't really know where to go from here.  I'm kind of scared.  I don't want to be naive.  Because I'm not.  It's in my nature to be naive at first but to be anything but later on.  And because I'm afraid, I hesitate and have a tendency, to be honest, to fuck up.

This is why I'm glad school is starting soon.

But not for long.

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