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Meh Lack of sleep

Shit, I slept for like four hours last night. Voluntarily, I might add. For some reason I opted to work at the info desk for the late shift last night. But John and I did have fun. It's been a while since I had seen him, so I guess it was worth it. Worked for about half an hour on my stats presentation (yes, a report on statistics. fun times). Worked for like 0 hours on my Dogma paper, which is a problem, because I have two points and I need three. Looking at the metaphors of spirituality present in the movie, I have come to two conclusions (and if you don't agree with me, sod off. This paper is due tomorrow and I'm not saying they are true, just that the movie is making these points about spirituality): Spirituality is false family security and spirituality is about cleansing. Only fitting that one of the opponents is a shit demon and those who follow God and go to heaven have "pure souls". Still need that third point, though. I thought about Spirituality as a journey (you're going to lead me somewhere) but I need more evidence. And I totally had Spirituality is a burden because they use burden, grudge, etc. But no again. I have to see if there is a script online. Well, the old original is online, but it's not the movie one. Oh well. Scratch that.

Otherwise, life is good. I miss him still. Lots. And it makes me sick to think he could be with someone else. Like eating I can do, my stomach just hates me. I dunno. I wish it were all different. I wish I could live in San Diego, or better yet, Santa Clara and San Diego merge, so I can still be with all of my friends like
dumbhippie  and hentaioverfiend and vintagefury  and Laura (sorry, I forgot your LJ name).   I miss him so much, though.  Hopefully something will work out.  I just have to figure it out.  I think dating will be good for us.  I don't really believe it at the moment, but maybe it is a good idea.  I just can't get into it.  Maybe it's because I haven't tried.  When Al kisses me, there's this small part of me that feels guilty afterwards.  I don't know, maybe I'll get over it.

Anyway, have a great day.  It'll be a long night of papers, let me tell you.


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Jan. 30th, 2004 03:29 pm (UTC)
If you come to San Diego after you graduate, we will be together again. I miss you too. We will figure it out. I'm not so sure about dating anymore, but I'll talk to you about that later. I don't want you to get into it. I don't want you to try. I don't want you to get over it. I love you and I want to be with you. What are you doing next weekend? I might try to come home.
Jan. 30th, 2004 09:21 pm (UTC)
Wishful thinking on your part. I'm still looking around. We will discuss this later, if you don't mind. Next weekend the team is going to Oregon. We leave on Friday morning and come back Sunday night.

"Most people would sooner die than think; in fact, they do so."
- Bertrand Russell (1872-1970)
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