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Desiderata.

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
-Written by Max Ehrmann in the 1920s



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seasons : icicles and red berries.

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Last night I found a little lump on Bosco the Pug's left arm/shoulder, so I'm concerned. I've had dogs before that have gotten lumps. (My mother's golden retriever, Juki, has at least a dozen. But ugh, Bosco's only 18 weeks old. Dexter pointed out that that's the location of Bosco's last immunization (it was only one shot), so we'll monitor it and schedule an exam next month if need be. That's further encouragement for me to get his insurance sorted today.

I'm back in course prep mode, which I've discovered is a safe zone for me. I feel like I'm being productive and can otherwise fiddle around and see people. Two of my classes start next week, which means I need to get everything as set up as possible and email students by the end of this week. It also means I'm less inclined to leave the house (Bosco is great for this, by the way). I'm already more of a homebody than most people admit to being. But I think I'm better at actually turning down social engagements. Well, not turning them down, exactly. It's more that I don't always take the initiative to start them. Part of this is a feeling that anyone can start that ball rolling and it doesn't need to be me. But the other part is just lazy. Plus, at this time of year, a good deal of my friends who are teachers, and they're as zoned out as I am about social engagements during winter break. (Or they're teaching classes again already, which I find completely bonkers.)

Sometimes I genuinely do worry that my not being social now will have an affect on me later. Or rather, an affect on my life. Am I missing out on maintaining relationships that are supposed to last me into old age? Does it mean I'll be lonelier in the future, when I really need those people to be around me. I feel that way about my family too, because I can see that I'm becoming a little less involved. I've always been a bit separated from the rest of my family (uncle, aunts, cousins) because their grandmother is not my grandmother, but I also suppose that I focus on out differences, and that keeps us from being close. (I also argue that they're so much prettier than me, and they talk about fun stuff that I know so little about.) But I tell myself that I really should try harder. I should talk to them more at family gatherings. Actually, my aunt and uncle are hosting a wine tasting at the winery that my cousin works at, so that should be nice. (Assuming I can go. Because, Bosco.)

Bosco's full of energy this morning, and I'd like to take him walking, but it's just a bit too cold this morning. Should settle Bosco's insurance and get some work done this morning before going to the bookstore and lunch with Tiffany. (Note: wrap up her Christmas present.) Will then come home and take the little bugger out for a lap.
seasons : icicles and red berries.

cold for california.

I've been a bit of a log since term ended. I don't think I've been this lazy during winter holiday in some time (not counting illness; I'm usually sick right after term ends). Today I had to through out some cookie dough I'd made last week. I might have been able to save it, but honestly, I don't need more cookies around the house, and those ones are especially hard for me to resist.

But some of the guilt of not doing anything comes from school. Right up until Christmas Eve I was feeling guilty for not prepping my upcoming classes, because I knew I could. I couldn't tell you what I did instead. I think the other reason for my slight melancholy is that I'm not reading anything particularly good. I have some library books on my Kindle, so I'm inclined to read those soonest, but ugh they're not great. Not terrible, but not mind-blowing. So I'm not even really eager to read.

So I think starting back up with work will do me good. AND:
-I need to make a service appointment for my Honda Civic;
-I also need to research insurance plans for Bosco (Bosco being the 17-week old pug who is now FULLY VACCINATED;
-OH I also need to call the stock broker about end of the year stuff;
-AND I need to make an appointment at the groomer's for Bosco.
January's going to be a bit lean. I'll probably get out my thank you cards tonight. Tomorrow my mom and I are heading to the mall early for charms, bedsheets, and a last-minute present for a visiting friend. I'm taking her to her work for a bit, and I can probably use that time to start prepping my classes (two of which start the first week of January, aka Right Around the Corner). Oh shoot, I probably need to start that teacherly blog too.

We should get the request for Summer 2016 classes soon. Dexter and I have already discussed potential schedules for me. We're not planning any trips this upcoming summer anyway; after D.C. last summer, we're saving money to see if we can pull Italy in the near future.
seasons : christmas figurines

merry merry.

I restumbled upon my journal when looking for some old holiday cookie recipes. I'd also received the notification that my paid account (and some icons) had died a quick death. I didn't immediately renew, because why spend the money on something I really don't use anymore?

But whilst researching my recipes, I changed my mind. I've heard journaling can be very good for you, and If no comments are expected, all the better. I'm actually going to be doing a journaling project for one of my schools. I'd read that it had some small pay attached to it (or release time?) but apparently the perk only applies to full-time faculty and staff. You'd better believe my journal will be called some version of ~adjunctly and include a lot of I AM AN ADJUNCT rhetoric.

Should I change my journal name? It's been ten years since I played rugby, and I'm no baby. (Wasn't then either, honestly.) Interestingly, adjunctly is available for purchase, but eh. I'm not my job. BUT the definition for adjunct is "a thing added to something else as a supplementary rather than an essential part", so that could actually be quite nice. That said, I think I'm still attached to this name, in the same way that I keep my paid account and userpics.

Off to bake some things. Typically we have a big family holiday tonight but my side of the family changed things up, and I'm quite happy to instead stay home, bake cookies, and drink mimosas.

Also, we have a pug.

Merry merry.
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books in stacks.

books of 2013.

books of 2013


It is my mission for the year of 2013 to read 50 books. Here is my challenge from last year; I'll list each of the 50 books from this year here, in order of when I begin reading them, and I'll link them to my Goodreads review of them after I finish them. I love Goodreads friends! I'm at myproblematique.

1.) The Law of the Land: A History of the Supreme Court by Kermit L. Hall. Audio format. (December/January)
2.) Lies My Teacher Told Me: Everything Your American History Textbook Got Wrong by James W. Loewen. (December/January)
3.) A Prayer for Owen Meany by John Irving. (December)


Total so far : 2 books!
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my mission 2012 list.

mission : 2012


In a previous post I mentioned merging a sort of mission101 list with a New Year's resolution. What emerged were several respectable resolutions that are reasonable. I'll update my progress on these resolutions every month and might change each resolution as necessary, but only when I meet a resolution and push it further.

1.) Cook a new dish every month. Possibly a new baked thing every month. Originally for mission101, I wanted to make nine new dishes. Even though I didn't succeed with that mission plan, I have made significant improvement with my cooking and baking. I'm much more of a baker, but I want to become more comfortable with cooking so that I really know what I'm eating and so I just become more accomplished. So while it's inevitable that I will bake more things (thanks in no small part to the baking gifts I received from my family), I want to focus on one new cooked/baked meal dish per month. I might even start with a stew, since we broke out the unused crock pot that my parents received as a wedding present. Unless the recipe is incredibly complicated, I'll post all recipes (with pictures) to this journal.

2.) Read 50 75 books. It was my original goal to read 50 books annually. ( I highly suggest 50bookchallenge. ) It's going to be harder for this upcoming year, but I'm going to keep doing it. I'll post the books and their Goodreads reviews here.

3.) Work out at least 5 days a week. I'm currently working out six days a week and plan to keep up this routine. However, things happen. Most of my activities should be in the gym, but Deanna mentioned taking long vigorous walks after we teach on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and those will count. I'll keep up my training sessions with John P. as long as I can or until I decide I don't need them. I always post my weekly review at dailyexercise and also post at The President's Challenge.

4.) Lose 20 lbs. This past year I lost 36 pounds. I'm trying not to focus too much on losing pounds because I know I'm lowering my fat percentage, losing half-inches here and there, and becoming healthier overall. However, I do still need to lose pounds to become healthier, and I fought hard for each of those 36 pounds. So a 20-pound resolution is reasonable.

5.) Purchase no more than 2 books per month. ( Including the book club book. ) This icon is an accurate representation of my room. I have tons of things to read and don't need to spend money on bunches of new books per month (even though I'd love to do so). I was inspired by Deana's ( deana_in_texas ) mission to not buy new books for six months. I could utilize our fair library if I don't already have it. I should also put some of my books on Goodreads.

6.) Save at least $50/month. Next semester's going to be difficult, because I'm not teaching as many sections and I'm still paying for personal training sessions. I'm having stupid difficulty saving money, so here's what I'm going to do. Every month when I get paid, I'm going to withdraw $50 and put it in an envelope in my desk. Not sure what it'll be for.

January | February | March | April | May | June | July | August | September | October | November | December

Please have a happy, healthy, peaceful new year, and I hope you enjoy your NYE festivities in whatever form they take! May this be a good and prosperous year for us all.
books : my house.

books of 2012

books of 2012


It is my mission for the year of 2012 to read 50 books. I'll list each of the 50 books here, in order of when I begin reading them, and I'll link them to my Goodreads review of them after I finish them. I love Goodreads friends! I'm at myproblematique.

1.) Death: The Time of Your Life by Neil Gaiman. (January)
2.) The Academic Self: An Owner's Manual by Donald E. Hall. (January)
3.) The Doll's House by Neil Gaiman. (January)
4.) Something Rotten by Jasper Fforde. (January)
5.) Jack Kennedy: Elusive Hero by Chris Matthews. (January)
6.) Don't Breathe a Word: A Novel by Jennifer McMahon. (January)
7.) The Help by Kathryn Stockett. Reread in audio format. (January/February)
8.) Bossypants by Tina Fey. Audio format. (February)
9.) I Am the Messenger by Markus Zusak. (January/February)
10.) The Invention of Hugo Cabret by Brian Selznick. (February)
11.) Resilience by Elizabeth Edwards. Audio format. (February)
12.) Traveling Mercies: Some Thoughts on Faith by Anne Lamott. (February)
13.) Dewey: The Small-Town Library Cat Who Touched the World by Vicki Myron. Audio format. (February)
14.) The Mind's Eye by Oliver Sacks. Audio format. (March)
15.) The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Society by Mary Ann Shaffer and Anne Barrows. (February/March)
16.) Back to Work: Why We Need Smart Government for a Strong Economy by Bill Clinton. Audio format. (March)
17.) Merits of Mischief: The Bad Apple by T.R. Burns. (March)
18.) Shatner Rules: Your Guide to Understanding the Shatnerverse and the World At Large by (and read by) William Shatner. Audio format. (March)
19.) Franny and Zoey by J.D. Salinger. (March)
20.) Matched by Ally Condie. (March)
21.) Mastering Your Metabolism by Jillian Michaels. (March/April)
22.) Artemis Fowl by Eoin Colfer. (March/April)
23.) Jonathan Strange and Mr Norrell by Susanna Clarke. Audio format. (March/April/May)
24.) Can You Keep a Secret? by Sophie Kinsella. Audio format. (May)
25.) I've Got Your Number: A Novel by Sophie Kinsella. Audio format. (May)
26.) The Three Musketeers by Alexandre Dumas. (March/April/May)
27.) The Problem of Pain by C.S. Lewis. Audio format. (May)
28.) Deadlocked by Charlaine Harris. (May)
29.) The School of Essential Ingredients by Erica Bauermeister. (May)
30.) Extraordinary, Ordinary People: A Memoir of Family by Condoleezza Rice. Audio format. (May/June)
31.) The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis. Audio format. (June)
32.) Unlimited: How to Build an Exceptional Life by Jillian Michaels. (June)
33.) Writing Down the Bones: Freeing the Writer Within by Natalie Goldberg. (May/June)
34.) Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis. Audio format. (June)
35.) The Shame of the Nation: The Restoration of Apartheid Schooling in America by Jonathan Kozol. (June)
36.) Fifty Shades of Grey by E.L. James. (June)
37.) Seriously... I'm Kidding by Ellen DeGeneres. Audio format. (June)
38.) Pebble in the Sky by Isaac Asimov. Audio format. (June)
39.) It Worked for Me: In Life and Leadership by Colin Powell. (June)
40.) The Princess and the Goblin by George MacDonald. (June/July)
41.) Great World Religions: Islam (The Great Courses) by John L. Esposito. Audio format. (June/July)
42.) Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince by J.K. Rowling. (June/July)
43.) The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian by Sherman Alexie. (July)
44.) Fifty Shades Darker by E.L. James. (July)
45.) God and Mankind: Comparative Religions - The Teaching Company (The Great Courses) by Robert A. Oden. Audio format. (July)
46.) The Teaching Company: Great World Religions Hinduism by Mark W. Muesse. Audio format. (July)
47.) Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows by J.K. Rowling. (July/August)
48.) Let's Pretend This Never Happened by Jenny Lawson. Audio format. (August)
49.) Fifty Shades Freed by E.L. James. (August)
50.) Great World Religions: Christianity (The Great Courses) by Luke Timothy Johnson. Audio format. (August)
51.) Why Our Health Matters by Dr. Andrew Weil. Audio format. (August/September)
52.) Feel-Bad Education: And Other Contrarian Essays on Children and Schooling by Alfie Kohn. (August/September)
53.) Great World Religions: Judaism (The Great Courses by Isaiah Gafni. Audio format. (September)
54.) I Remember Nothing: and Other Reflections by Nora Ephron. Audio format. (September)
55.) Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn. (August/September)
56.) A Stolen Life: A Memoir by Jaycee Dugard. Audio format. (September)
57.) Little Princes: One Man's Promise to Bring Home the Lost Children of Nepal by Conor Grennan. (September/October)
58.) Robopocalypse by Daniel H. Wilson. Audio format. (September/October)
59.) I Feel Bad About My Neck: And Other Thoughts on Being a Woman by Nora Ephron. Audio format. (October/November)
60.) The Homework Myth: Why Our Kids Get Too Much of a Bad Thing by Alfie Kohn. (October/November)
61.) Is Everyone Hanging Out Without Me? And Other Concerns by Mindy Kaling. Audio format. (November)
62.) Something Wicked This Way Comes by Ray Bradbury. (October/November)
63.) Writing With Style: Conversations on the Art of Writing by John R. Trimble. (August/November)
64.) Life and Writings of C.S. Lewis (The Great Courses) by Louis Markos. Audio format. (November)
65.) Savage Inequalities: Children in America's Schools by Jonathan Kozol. (November)
66.) The Naming of the Beasts by Mike Carey. (November/December)
67.) I'd Like to Apologize to Every Teacher I Ever Had: My Year as a Rookie Teacher at Northeast High by Tony Danza. Audio format. (November/December)
68.) Religion and Immigration: Christian, Jewish, and Muslim Experiences in the United States edited by Haddad, Smith, and Esposito. (November/December)

Total : 68 books!
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